Webs

“Grant that I may be given appropriate difficulties and suffering on this journey so that my heart may be truly awakened and my practice of liberation and universal compassion may be truly fulfilled.” ~Tibetan Prayer~

Blackness Blankets

Perception 

Rigidity in Dualism 

Nonbeing Nonself

I am vibration

Om

What Face Did I Wear

Before Birth

Changed It?

The mask I wear,

Lifelong Stumbling 

In Circles.

You Cannot Solve a Problem 

With The Same Mind

That Created It

Solution

Equals

Changing 

To My Original 

Face

To My Original 

Home

Life is a Returning.

“We shall not cease from exploration. And the end of all our exploring. Will be to arrive where we started. And know the place for the first time.” ~T.S. Eliot~

Rock Bottom

“Anger is an acid that can do more harm to the vessel in which it is stored than to anything on which it is poured.” ~Mark Twain~

When

There is

Nowhere left

To go,

Go up!

“When they go low - We go high” ~Michelle Obama~

Roots

Never forget where

You came from.

Never forget who

You are.

Never forget;

But Learn to Forgive.

“Holding on to anger and resentment is like holding on to a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned first.”

 ~The Buddha~

Be Me

“Just look at my life path! Why, oh why, have I always been so harsh with myself? Why was I always beating myself up? Why was I always forsaking myself? Why did I never stand up for myself and show the world the beauty of my own soul? Why was I always suppressing my own intelligence and creativity to please others? I betrayed myself every time I said yes when I meant no! Why have I violated myself by always needing to seek approval from others just to be myself? Why haven’t I followed my own beautiful heart and spoken my own truth? Why don’t we realize this when we’re in our physical bodies? How come I never knew that we are not supposed to be so tough on ourselves?” ~Anita Moorjani~

A Year To Live

“Those who insist they’ve got their ‘shit together’ are usually standing in it at the time.” ~Stephen Levine~

Out of Control

I'm careening in my car. In the left hand lane. With a concrete barrier to the left of me. I'm going too fast. Way too fast. I am out of control. The lane keeps ending and I have to merge right; over and over again. I grip the wheel. Hard. My hands hurt. I'm flooring the gas pedal. It's dark; only my headlights and the headlights around me  illuminate the black road. The yellow lines. My lane ending; over and over again. I merge left. There is so much traffic. And we are all going way too fast. I feel my heart race and my body heat up. Every time I merge I almost collide with the speeding car next to me. Then, I feel her...

She is sitting in my lap. With my right hand I reach down. I scoop her up with my right arm. My left hand steering - gripping the wheel. I'm going too fast. I can't look down to see her, I can't let my eyes leave the road. But I'm lifting her soft, warm, little body up to my heart. I can feel her heart beat on mine. I want to see her. The cars are packed in too tight. We are all driving way too fast and every few seconds my lane ends and I have to merge into the non-existent space between two cars. God Help Me! 

She nuzzles against me and I can feel her head brush my chin, so soft. So Sweet. So warm. 

And then she kisses me. Little tiny puppy kisses on my chin and my lips. I look down. It is her. It is really her! She is here and she is kissing my face. My heart swells and literally bursts! I cry out, "I WOULD RATHER DIE THAN LIVE WITHOUT YOU!!!!" 

I take my left hand off of the wheel and wrap her in both of my arms. I bring my face and my tears and my kisses into her neck...

I feel the car slide - I feel the thud - I'm jerked back and forth - I feel myself being hurled and spun through the air - the car is flipping. 

Everything is going dark. And I smile. I know that I am about to die. I have one second. Then, I am going to be with her again.

forever.