One Shot

wrapped around inside myself. eternally bound to you. tied into a knot that cannot be undone. permanently placed on my soul. i cannot remove your blood from my hands. i see you in every question. i wonder what if i had, only to know i would not have. i lost you and found myself.

earnestly
you
attempted
to
unfeel
the pains

that ran
too deep
to ignore

medicating
your
emotions
that were
too intense
to release

crying out
in the night

gripping
desperately
to the day

shaking

pushing
consciousness
away

looking for
a new
reality

while

re-living
the past

striving
for a
future
that brought
forth

hope
happiness
and....

stumbling
down
to the
bottom
again

life
ending
before
knowing
the bliss
before
finding
the release

always wanting
to be more
than
you
were

something
better
than
you
were

than the you
that your
mind created

laughing
through
the
tears

dancing
through
the
anger

trying
to
recreate

a life
already
lived
and
yet
unknown
and
unfound

hidden

never
to
be seen
by your
bright
beautiful
eyes

because,

You
Closed
Your
Own
Eyes
And
Forgot
To
Say
Good-Bye