Out of Control

I'm careening in my car. In the left hand lane. With a concrete barrier to the left of me. I'm going too fast. Way too fast. I am out of control. The lane keeps ending and I have to merge right; over and over again. I grip the wheel. Hard. My hands hurt. I'm flooring the gas pedal. It's dark; only my headlights and the headlights around me  illuminate the black road. The yellow lines. My lane ending; over and over again. I merge left. There is so much traffic. And we are all going way too fast. I feel my heart race and my body heat up. Every time I merge I almost collide with the speeding car next to me. Then, I feel her...

She is sitting in my lap. With my right hand I reach down. I scoop her up with my right arm. My left hand steering - gripping the wheel. I'm going too fast. I can't look down to see her, I can't let my eyes leave the road. But I'm lifting her soft, warm, little body up to my heart. I can feel her heart beat on mine. I want to see her. The cars are packed in too tight. We are all driving way too fast and every few seconds my lane ends and I have to merge into the non-existent space between two cars. God Help Me! 

She nuzzles against me and I can feel her head brush my chin, so soft. So Sweet. So warm. 

And then she kisses me. Little tiny puppy kisses on my chin and my lips. I look down. It is her. It is really her! She is here and she is kissing my face. My heart swells and literally bursts! I cry out, "I WOULD RATHER DIE THAN LIVE WITHOUT YOU!!!!" 

I take my left hand off of the wheel and wrap her in both of my arms. I bring my face and my tears and my kisses into her neck...

I feel the car slide - I feel the thud - I'm jerked back and forth - I feel myself being hurled and spun through the air - the car is flipping. 

Everything is going dark. And I smile. I know that I am about to die. I have one second. Then, I am going to be with her again.

forever.