Passing Illness

        “Whatever condition we are in, we must always do what we want to do, and if we want to go on a journey, then we must do so and not worry about our condition, even if it's the worst possible condition, because, if it is, we're finished anyway, whether we go on the journey or not, and it's better to die having made the journey we've been longing for than to be stifled by our fear.”  

 

“Sometimes I think illness sits inside every woman, waiting for the right moment to bloom. I have known so many sick women all my life. Women with chronic pain, with ever-gestating diseases. Women with conditions. Men, sure, they have bone snaps, they have backaches, they have a surgery or two, yank out a tonsil, insert a shiny plastic hip. Women get consumed.“

 

Breathe deeply. Sniffle. 

Cough. Tickle. Smolder.

Sleep and Rest.

Dreamscapes surreal.

Prayer to The Beloved,

Peace, Health, Happiness and Prosperity.

 

Interior Wilderness

“The fragility of crystal is not a weakness but a fineness. My parents understood that fine crystal glass had to be cared for or may be shattered. But when it came to me, they didn’t seem to know or care that their course of action brought the kind of devastation that could cut them.”

I’ve given away 95% of my possessions.

I’m left with only what I need for survival, and joy.

In less than two weeks I will load my van.

I will leave the Deep South.

And I will leave behind my past.

I will traverse the continent.

I will journey to 6,250 feet of elevation.

I will stop and create a new home.

An interior wilderness to match the external wildness.

I will live with the grizzlies, wolves, bison, and moose.

I will breathe fresh clean crisp mountain air.

And drink from the bubbling pristine streams.

I will heal my body and my soul.

"I will miss you too, but you are wrong if you think that the joy of life comes principally from the joy of human relationships. God's placed it all around us, it is in everything and in anything we can experience. People just need to change the way they look at things."

The Dress

Daughter: We’ve finally picked a date for the wedding, I’m so excited!

Mother: Don’t expect your dad and I to pay for it.

Daughter: I wasn’t…

Mother: Don’t sound so sad, we’ll get your dress.

Daughter: No, it’s ok. I wasn’t expecting anything, I was just excited and wanted to let you know the date.

Mother: Are you saying we can’t buy your dress? This is supposed to be a happy time for all of us and now you’re not going to let us help!

Daughter: No, I’m sorry. Of course you can help.

Mother: I’ll start looking at dresses and send you some ideas.

Daughter: I actually found the one that I want. It’s sleeveless with a princess cut.

Mother: You know you’re not a princess.

Daughter: I know… it’s just the style of dress… it’s so pretty… it’s just what I imagined.

Mother: Well, I hope it’s not white, you’re not fooling anyone.

Daughter: ...

Scatterlings

Day By Day

Piece By Piece 

Bit by Bit

I Let Go Of My Past.

“The yogi reduces her physical needs to a minimum, believing that if she gathers things she does not really need then she is a thief.”

“It requires tremendous patience to calm the restless mind which is colored by innumerable past experiences and samskara (the accumulated residue of past thoughts and actions).”

“The path of Yoga is like the sharp edge of a razor, narrow and difficult to tread, and there are a few who find it. The Yogi knows that the path of ruin or of salvation lies within herself.“

“The supreme adventure in a woman’s life is her journey back to her creator!” ~Iyengar~