Thursday, March 26, 2009

andy panda

"too many people buy shit they don't need. with money they don't have. to impress people they don't like."

Monday, March 23, 2009

society

"It's a mystery to me
we have a greed
with which we have agreed

You think you have to want
more than you need
until you have it all you won't be free

society, you're a crazy breed
I hope you're not lonely without me

When you want more than you have
you think you need
and when you think more than you want
your thoughts begin to bleed

I think I need to find a bigger place
'cos when you have more than you think
you need more space

society, you're a crazy breed
I hope you're not lonely without me
society, crazy and deep
I hope you're not lonely without me

there's those thinking more or less less is more
but if less is more how you're keeping score?
Means for every point you make
your level drops
kinda like its starting from the top
you can't do that...

society, you're a crazy breed
I hope you're not lonely without me
society, crazy and deep
I hope you're not lonely without me

society, have mercy on me
I hope you're not angry if I disagree
society, crazy and deep
I hope you're not lonely without me"

Protected Mode:On

weapons
madness
destruction

decaying
dust

burnt
alive

revisiting
past
lives

sleep
to
dream
to
scream

electrocution
awakens
torment

walling
me
into
my
own
hell

lone
beach

standing
staring

searching
for the
gunman

hiding
in the
bush

taking
aim

at
my heart

shaking

the ring

falls.......

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Maya

"A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
enough money within her control to move out
and rent a place of her own,
even if she never wants to or needs to...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
something perfect to wear if the employer,
or date of her dreams
wants to see her in an hour...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
a youth she's content to leave behind....


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to
retelling it in her old age....


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
one friend who always makes her laugh..
and one who lets her cry...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
a good piece of furniture not previously owned
by anyone else in her family...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems,
and a recipe for a meal,
that will make her guests feel honored...


A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
a feeling of control over her destiny..


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to fall in love without losing herself..


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to quit a job,
break up with a lover,
and confront a friend without
ruining the friendship...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
when to try harder...
and WHEN TO WALK AWAY...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that she can't change the length of her calves,
the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that her childhood may not have been perfect...
but it's over...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she would and wouldn't do for love or more...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW....
how to live alone... even if she doesn't like it...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
whom she can trust,
whom she can't,
and why she shouldn't take it personally...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
where to go...
be it to her best friend's kitchen table..
or a charming Inn in the woods....
when her soul needs soothing...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
What she can and can't accomplish in a day...
a month...and a year..."

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

a start

i held you
while you
cried

i cried
for you
while you
slept

locked in
locking you
out

unable to stop
the images
the memories
the flashbacks
the pain

unable to stop
you

i begged
cried
pleaded

painfully
loving


painfully
leaving

Thursday, March 12, 2009

determinism

dying
daily
in the
exploits
of
misadventures

becoming
a
being
that is
not
like the
true
self

wishing
for a
different
version
of
reality

wishing
for a
version
starring

just
you
and
just
me

two
people
one
soul
traveling
through
this
universe

discovering
our own
destinies
our own
pleasures
deciding
our own
fate
based on
our own
wants
our own
needs
our own
beliefs
our own
visions

our own
future
of

just
you
and
just
me
will
never
be

chaos theory

"In mathematics, chaos theory describes the behavior of certain dynamical systems – that is, systems whose states evolve with time – that may exhibit dynamics that are highly sensitive to initial conditions (popularly referred to as the butterfly effect). As a result of this sensitivity, which manifests itself as an exponential growth of perturbations in the initial conditions, the behavior of chaotic systems appears to be random. This happens even though these systems are deterministic, meaning that their future dynamics are fully defined by their initial conditions, with no random elements involved. This behavior is known as deterministic chaos, or simply chaos.
Chaotic behavior is also observed in natural systems, such as the weather. This may be explained by a chaos-theoretical analysis of a mathematical model of such a system, embodying the laws of physics that are relevant for the natural system."

Sunday, March 08, 2009

sporadic

forgotten
responsibilities

performing
miracles

naming
what is known
with
new words

creating
mystical
dimensions
into
reality

observing
occasional
originality

however
slight

creating
momentary
inspiration

a
new
spiritual
view

maneuvering
myself
into
places
that
instantaneously
Release Regret

expressing
pleasure
in
a
sin
that
was
once
so common

now
so rare....

as
to be
sublime
---------

from
my
lips
my
prayers
You
take.

Friday, March 06, 2009

Legion

long winter
evenings
spread out
cold
dead
buried

mythology
recreates
the first
spider
in this
house

indescribable
innocence

when
one
whispers
"God is alone"

as it
should be
for me

grotesque
visions
stemming
from
weariness
and
weakness

create
a space
filled
with
laughter
light
love

unbeknownst
to me

unreal
and
unseen

to those
who watch
my
death
rattle

i
ascend
to
the
northern
star
by
the southern
wind

Thursday, March 05, 2009

Disintegration

Inconvenience
Experienced

Difficulty
Maintaining

Distance

Personal
Space

Black
Hole

I retreat
Two steps

While
You proceed
Four more

Motion

Falling
Backwards
Forwards
And
Around
My
Mind

Needing
Room
To
Unfold
And
Form

My
Own
Dimensions
Representations
Of
Space
And
Time
Seeing
Through

My
Eyes

So Far From

The
Sight
Of
Yours

Boundaries
Pushed
Pulled
Stretched
And
Disregarded

Unable
To
Find
A
Neutral
Ground

A
Soft
Spot
To
Sit
And
Evaporate
Into
Wind

Monday, March 02, 2009

ab-in1

Woolf

"I thought how unpleasant it is to be locked out; and I thought how it is worse, perhaps, to be locked in"

Sunday, March 01, 2009

apart

the thread of life
an invisible thread
ties me to you
binds you to me

trying to walk
the path
together

when we come to
the proverbial
fork

OUR thread
being pulled
taut

you going
left

while

i
wander
right

look into my eyes
and
pull on the thread

All In Vain

I have been down that
path
already....

insanity
greed
anger
deceit

I have seen where it
ends

And
I
Refuse.

I prefer
to go
this way
instead

a way I
have never been

something new

please,
take my hand

please,
kiss my lips

please,
change your course

let our love
direct your sail

please,
come with me

I desire the
unknown

And,
please
Remember,

I can cut
this
thread......

relic

illustrating
undeveloped
self-control

howling
insane
idiots

no sound in
nature
quite as
melancholy

as the gurgling
melody of
decomposing prayers

day or night
summer and winter

demons
grasping
groping
through
the decay
and dirt
finding
dawn
gripping
day-light
dismal
twilight
greedily
holding
the spirits
down

hey J....

"You can't cross the ocean with
your feet in two boats"