Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Isolation

"Existentialism - a philosophy that emphasizes the uniqueness and isolation of the individual in a hostile or indifferent universe and stresses freedom of choice and responsibility for the consequences of one's actions."

Pleasure and Pain
entwined
I must forgive
in my lust
to love

Die Without Fear?
Die Without Fear!

Enter my grave with
a smile on my face

I will, must, flee
this earth, this life
in order to find liberty.

Inspiring
Loathsome
Rage

Imploring
MY
Deceitful
Devil
within

I aspire to delay
the decay
of this moment.

DEFIANTLY
SEEKING
DISTINCTION

Remember me, please!

I ascend
transcend
this world, this life, this body

Think of me, please!

I am confined to this time
this world, this life, this body

unable to grow
I pursue
more
than this!

MORE THAN THIS!!

Never ending circles
of meaningless
life.

Do not pity me.
Pity you.
We have choice.

Friday, November 10, 2006

My Broken Heart

Shattered.
a broken heart
still filled with love
pours itself inside my
veins
spills through me
consuming
cutting me to my
core
allowed myself to love
allowed myself to hurt
believed in the possibility
of
happiness
How do we
let go
of a love
that still
lives?
How do we
move past
wondering.........
Was it you?
Were you the One?
Was I the One
for you?
Questions that have
no answers.
One month
is not
enough
We needed more....

Sunday, October 22, 2006

So You Know

"My Sum Is Greater Than My Parts"

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Kabbalah

"I Will Be What I Will Be."

Eternal

Heavy Heart
Aching Pain
Joyless Joy
Deep, Pure
and
True
Find Strength
In The Gift
Forever
Find Hope
In The Knowledge
Eternal
Mind
Heart
Body
Soul
Time Eternal
Flame Of Life
Grasp Wisdom
Seek Freedom
Unloosen The Chains
That Bind
Constrict
Cut
Life Is Fleeting
Moments Gone
Passing Time In
The Eye Of
The Storm
My ONLY Certainty
Is Death Comes
Slowly Leaving
Life
Humbled
Blind
Naive
Finding Hope
Renewing Growth
Eating Away
The Core Of
LIFE
Life
life
Life Is Finding
The Freedom To
Die
Satisfied
BE SATISFIED
Lose Fear
Love Passionately
Forgive YOU
Forgive ME
Forgive THEM
Love WITHOUT Fear
No Regrets
Do Not Bind
Yourself/Myself
To Cynicism
Do Not Bind
Yourself/Myself
To
Our Past
Do Not Resign
Yourself/Myself
To A Pre-ordained
Future
Give Freely
Lose Pride
In A Passionate Release
Give Way To
Possibilities
Strength Enduring
To Keep
Searching
Happiness Can Be
Fleeting
Or
Live Eternal

Monday, October 09, 2006

hamlet

"Life Is A Tale
Told By An Idiot
Full Of Sound And Fury
Signifying Nothing."

maxine

"That was your gift to me-
there-that was the place
where my life bent away from itself
to join something else,
just as when we say
it did not happen to only me
we begin to give up the self,
saying that it happens to all of us
and that is when we begin to hear
and to speak and to give up our silence."
-Maxine Scates-

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Is this Reality?

fascination
in a warped
sense of reality

violence, greed, hunger, hate?

activisim
connected to
art

intellectual world
spiritual heart

My body is my art?
My mind is my art?

magnify the trivia
of our lives

Live to Love
Love to Hate?

propganda feeds
our lies
our lives

I mask myself
my face - my real
disguise

passionate violences
creates criminals
out of activists

reconcile yourself
myself

to the world that we
created
the god that we
created

the world that we
perpetuate

I stagnate
cannot move
cannot feel
cannot cry

cannot change
myself
my world
our world

our lives

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Living Proof

Pain
cannot
will not
be
ignored

Push it away
Cover your eyes
pretend
and
pray

But
until
you

see
taste
feel
hear
and
smell
it

You will be
haunted
hurt
hunted

Pain
must be
unavoidably
acknowledged

Spoken
Shared
Singled
out
and

told
and

believed
and

heard

while
you - I - me
WE
listen

So
That
you - I - me
WE
can

grow
change
heal

AND

Let Go
Be Real
Be Whole

NEW

Beautiful
Alive and Free

Open the door and Walk through pain

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Inevitable

How can I write anything new
Now that I no longer have you
You were my muse
my light
my dark angel
my knight
in too much armor
You tore my heart apart
I wrote
You broke my soul in two
I wrote
You pushed me away
Without ever letting go
You showed me the door
but always kept it closed
You destroyed my innocence
I wrote
You ended my childhood
I wrote
You were my bruise
my sight
my archangel
my night
who shut out the day
You held me tight
While saying "I don’t love you"
You kissed my lips
And whispered "the end is here"
"I love you"
when I’m gone
"Please leave"
when I’m near
This was inevitable
and I write

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Glamour

Religion
Sex
Culture
Work

How far can you make it on your looks?

Nail Polish
Mascara
Rouge
Lip Wax

After-Shave
Cologne
Deodorant
Back Wax

How much can you change about how you look?

Weights
Aerobics
Botox
Silicone

Dexatrim
Phen-fen
Steroids
Creatine

How much money do you spend on looks?

45 BILLION
Dollar
Thinness
Industry

30 BILLION
Dollar
Youth
Industry

Fashion
Beauty
Masks
Reality

Spend that money on some therapy!!!

Monday, March 06, 2006

Honor

I am
A Jew
I am
Black
I am
A Buddhist
I am
White
I am
A Hindu
I am
Indigenous
I am
A Wiccan
I am
Hispanic
I am
A Christian
I am
Asian
I am
A Muslim
I am
Somewhere in Between
I am
YOU
I am
ME
I am
Gay
I am
Straight
I am
Somewhere in Between
I am
YOU
I am
ME
I am
Liberal
I am
Conservative
I am
Independent
I am
Somewhere in Between
I am
YOU
I am
ME
I am
Woman
I am
Man
I am
Transsexual
I am
Somewhere in Between
I am
YOU
I am
ME
I am
A genius
I am
Developmentally Delayed
I am
Somewhere in Between
I am
YOU
I am
Me
Celebrate Diversity
Honor Yourself in Me

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Blind


I’m blind
Blind to the world
and what is real
and what is not
Blind to your
deceit
Blind to my
defeat
I cannot see what is real
I only see what is not

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Innumerable


Perennial Wisdom
Religion
Philosophy
Psychology
Macrocosm
Microcosm
King of your thoughts
Queen of my thoughts
Direct Expression
Direct Reflection
My World
Our World
Mind
and
Body
Universe at large
Subjective universe
Obscure thoughts
Change my world
Change your world
Our collective unconcious
CONNECTED
Dreams
Archetypes
Symbols
Medieval alchemy
Western hermetic
Occult tradition
Body/Mind
Mind/Body
My Body Is
Kingdom
Garden
Empire
Your Body Is
Empire
Garden
Kingdom
Our Bodies Are
ONE
Universal



*poem inspired by the above painting -- Artist of painting is unknown

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Awaken

Awaken - I command thee
come into the light
No longer hide in shadows
it is time to fight
Your soul is now free
you have sight
Stop watching from the windows
and go into the night

Stop being passive
Stop being silent
Stop being victimized

Your body is strong
Your soul is strong
Your mind is strong

No more Whimpers
No more Whispers
No more Whines

Awaken - Desire
Awaken - Power
Awaken - Voice

You Are Woman
You Must Roar!!

Monday, February 06, 2006

Searching



Searching this sea
I find
but cannot see
the light.

Leaving my dream
I fall
but cannot stand
to scream.

Wanting to believe
I look
but cannot grasp
the naive.

Needing to feel
I try
but cannot touch
the unreal.